Just One Day In The Past

if only we could just go back one step into the past,
everything would go back to normal.
how we used to laugh on the phone,
tell silly little jokes,
& talk about almost anything.
after everything we've been through together,
good times, bad times,
it's all worth it.
now, everthing is starting to screw up.
from our friendship to everything else,
it became awkward when we promised it wouldn't,
that nothing would ever come in the way of our friendship,
it just didn't go through.
i still love you as such a close friend & you know it.
& i know you do too.
but just to make the effort, you can't do it.
how could i ever bring things back to the way it was.
it's just not possible,
but we have to make the best out of it.
you helped me realise the greater things in store,
you were always there when i needed someone,
you made me laugh,
& i knew you were the friend i can always count on.
but then it happened,
that thing i always wished would never happen,
but it did.
i can't change that fact.
i was the cause of your tears & how i wish i could just take it all back.
i don't even want to catch a glimpse of you being down and shattered.
we can't even communicate,
how are we suppose to make things better?
i did fall for you,
but i didn't think you did.
now i'm just full of doubts.